Today is May 16th, my.. i have already spent around 4 months in Taiwan.
Enclosed in my dimmly lighted room, Royal Palace they call it, i think i’m going to vomit soon.
Scary, draining, boring, unhealthy and fattening. I’ve lost touch with the world outside, feeling trapped, looking tired. I stood infront of the mirror, dark eye circles, dull complexion and outgrown hair. I looked old and ugly 
I have stayed from chinese new year to mother’s day, from fury coats to singlets, from riot to singapore voting, from earthquake to typhoon.
I can’t remember when was the last time i had a dream, or the last time i had a meal with someone, nor the last time i spoke to my frens face to face.
All i recalled was work, worked and still working…
I realised i stopped going to the washroom because there wasnt enough time, i dun feel hungry because there was no lunch break, i carried 2 phones with me all the time because someone from work might call. The graveyard shift security guard know me well enough to let me enter the building without a pass, and he even came to chat with me when he has the chance to.
Giddy, i was afraid i would faint. But i was even more afraid that i had become a workaholic.
So i went on net and searched for the symptoms of a workaholic, and phew i realised i was just an extremely HARDWORKING employee. i’m still not sure why am i slogging my life away.
Hard workers experience their work as a necessary & at times fulfilling obligation…
Vs.
Workaholics see their work as a place of safety from the unpredictableness of life and distance from unwanted feelings &/or commitments.
Hard workers know when to set limits on their work in order to be fully available and present for their family, friends, and to be able to participate in play…
Vs.
Workaholics allow their work to take top billing over all other areas of their life. Commitments to family, friends, and their children are often made and then broken to meet work demands.
Workaholics get an adrenalin rush from meeting impossible demands…
Vs.
Hard workers can turn off their work appetite…
Vs.
Workaholics cannot Not Work. They remain preoccupied with work even if they are playing golf with friends or attending their children’s sporting events. The mind of the workaholic continues to grind away about work issues/problems to be fixed.
